This is an interesting post to write. One I may
delete. Rewrite. Delete. And then write again.
The last year has been an interesting time for me.
I thought I had everything I wanted. I thought my life was great.
It was, don't get me wrong, it was great for me at
that moment in time.
But over the last 10 months I realized I wanted
more. I realized I was capable of giving more. I realized I was
worth more than I gave myself credit for.
So internally I've had ups and a lot of downs.
I've struggled with 'who am I?'
I know I'm a wife and a mother and a good one at
that. I know I'm an athlete, one that loves adrenaline and the rush of
crushing a goal. I know I'm a friend, not always the best one, but one
that is there when it matters. I know I'm a perfectionist, one that sets
goal, and crushes them. I know I'm loyal and would give someone the shirt
off my back.
I know that about me. But there's more about
me.
I just didn't know what it was.
But then this election cycle happened. It
taught me more about myself in 10 months than I had learned in the prior 35
years.
It completed my circle.
I thought for most of my life that all I needed in
life was to be a wife and a mother.
It is very clear to me today that my life would be
incomplete, would be nothing, without being a wife to Ryan, mother to Sayre and
Wyatt, AND a part of a greater cause. Right now, my greater cause is
working for our Senator and I couldn't be happier, I couldn't feel more
complete.
Today I finally reached that equilibrium.
I finally reached a point where I believed enough
in myself that I came to the conclusion that I can do it all and can do it all
in the same fashion I've done everything else in my life. With precision,
passion, dedication, direction, and focus. I will do it all very well in
true Kate fashion.
My brain is finally silenced.
My brain finally caught up to my soul (that knew I
could do it all along) and got on board with the current plan.
I just called and read this to someone. This
person thinks it's too personal to share, that by sharing it diminishes it's
heart-felt honesty.
But then again this is me. Out in the open.
Susceptible to it all.
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